05 July 2010

For Moe.

My Dear Friends,

This post has nothing to do with fashion.  I'm just sad, and I need to vent and reflect.  My cat Moe passed away yesterday.  I went into his kennel to feed him and he was just laying there...I don't know what happened & I'm having a hard time dealing with it.  He was only around 3 years old. 

I know some people are thinking he's "just a cat" but none of my pets are "just pets"...I try my best to take care of them & treat them well.  I want them to feel safe and happy and loved.  I feel like I let him down.  He was fine when I went to bed.  I can't help thinking about it over and over in my head.  What I could have done differently...What if I wasn't sleeping - could I have helped him?


My best friend and I rescued him when he was a baby.  He was a stray whose mother was quite the baby-maker.  You would see her all over town, pregnant more often than not.  She did not possess the mothering instinct and usually her poor kittens didn't make it very long.  We tried to take her to our Humane Society to have her fixed & adopted but they wouldn't take her.  Out of Moe's litter, he was the only one who would come up to people & be friendly, and he was the only one who made it to adulthood. 


One day we went outside and found him sitting in our garage, bleeding from a pretty bad leg wound.  His back paw was swollen twice its normal size, it was raw and missing hair.  We immediately took him to the vet.  Our vet said he would have died had we not brought him in.  He had a terrible infection.  We brought him home and got him a nice kennel so he could recuperate just like the vet said.  We gave him his daily antibiotics.  He had food, water & nice place to sleep complete with litter box.   It took a while, but he made a full recovery. 


He was still cautious of people.  He preferred to live in his kennel.  He would come visit you for a while, lay next to you on the bed and watch tv with you.  He would want to play, but his type of play usually resulted in my arms covered in scratches.  He was playful just like any cat, but he had some razor sharp claws!  He was really happy when you cuddled with him, he would lay his head on your shoulder and take a nap.  But when he was tired of it, he would go back and lay on his kennel.  He enjoyed his solitude. 

Moe had a very pronounced meow.  It sounded a little bit like he was saying "Moe" more than "Meow"...so he kind of named himself.  He went from a little baby to a BIG cat in our care.  He was around the size of a Jack Russell.  He was my sweet boy.  I'm so glad we rescued him when he was a baby.  I'd like to think that we gave him more time than he would have had, had he stayed a stray.  He brought us many great memories and he had such a fantastic personality.  I will miss him terribly. 


I can't help but have guilt.  I think most everyone experiences guilt when something or someone they love dies.  I know everyone asks themselves "Why?" in these types of situations.  It just doesn't make anything better.  I still hurt and I still hurt for him.  He will be missed very very much.  I love you, Moe Cat.  I hope we gave you a good life. 

8 comments:

Kimberly said...

Oh sweetie, my heart goes out to you. I treat my two dogs like my children, so I totally understand the connection you can have with an animal. I am sending lots of positive vibes your way and will be thinking about you during this difficult time.

trippingtiffies said...

Thank you Kimberly. I'm glad someone else treats their animals like their kids. Mine ARE my kids and I feel just so sad...Thank you for your comment. I appreciate it.

Lynzy said...

So adorable!! I saved my kitten, Tweezers about one year ago!


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The Knitwit Knitter said...

So sorry to hear about your kitty! Pets are family members! Hang in there!

Niki said...

:( I'm sorry about your kitty, that's so terrible.

JoJo said...

I'm sorry about your cat sweety :-(

Chrissy said...

All my animals are like my kids... I love them and they love me back... I am sorry to hear about your cat.. I lost my beloved Ferret Scamper a year ago but I knew he was ill... But knowing he is going hurts the same as not knowing he was going....

Your in my thoughts and your Moe Cat Loved you.. You gave him the best life ever because you loved him... don't ever forget that...

Andie said...

I totally understand. I'm so so sorry! many hugs to you.